Missin' you  / Chris Wojnar (Friend)

Hey Nick, your mom came into my work a couple times in the last month and we both got to conversate on how much we miss ya.  I hope you're alright up there, and you have a great thanksgiving!  Miss you.

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We miss you  / Brittany Millard (Friend)
Hey buddy...
I just stumbled across this website it amazing the amount of people on here and the things thay say.  You were truly loved.  Its been a while now since your accident and I cant tell you it feels like yesterday I got the call.  Anyways, I know me and you fell apart in past years but I still find it surreal your gone.   Its like I just havn;t seen you in a while.  I know you watching down on everyone and I know I speak for everyone when I say WE MISS you.  I will see you again though I have faith in that .  Keep smiling
Britt Close

so true...  / Mom

There are things that we don't want to happen
but have to accept,
things we don't want to know
but have to learn,
and people we can't live without
but have to let go.

I miss you in my world sweet baby.
Love you more than life, Mom

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1 Year today, missing u more than ever...  / Holly Dams (His sister )
It's one year today, and I miss you more than you can imagine. I wish I could see you and talk to you. The past year so much has gone on. We lost you and grandma....I dreamt of you last night. It was so nice to see your face, smiling and talking. I cant imagine what heaven is like....I know you've helped us everyday and you will continue to help us everyday until we see you again. It still doesn't seem real to me. It seems like just yesterday we were laughing watching "pimp my ride" on mtv! Man Nick, everyone misses you so much. I just hope you're up there happy, waiting for the next lucky one to come and join you. I LOVE YOU LITTLE BROTHER!! See you soon...

Love~
Holl
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HELD by Natalie Grant (Album: Awaken)  / Mom

Two months is too little.
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would
Take a child from his mother while she prays
is appalling.

Who told us we’d be rescued?
What is changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We’re asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It’s unfair.

(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life,
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
when everything fell, we’d be held.

This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it, let the hatred know our sorrow
The wise hands opens slowly
to lilies of the valley and tomorrow.

(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held to be hurt
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
when everything fell, we’d be held.

If hope is born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?

This is what it is to be hurt
how it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved
And to know, that the promise was
when everything fell, we’d be held.

This is what it is to be held
And to know that the promise was
when everything fell,
we’d be held…

This is what it means
to be held…
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Memories / Mom
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SO SORRY  / GORDON HOLMES (NONE)
Im so sorry to hear about your son Nicholas.
We also lost our son Ryan in a motorcycle accident in 2003.

People ask how we get by after our tragic loss and I cant answer them 
because I dont know how we get by.

It just seems we are waiting to die ourselves so that we can be back with our loved ones.

It also really hurts to know that they were so young my son was 21 years old
they had there lives taken so young.

we run a charity in our sons name it helps us a little keeps us busy
And we know Ryan would be proud of us for doing it.

we have a web site www.ryan-holmes-charity  if your care to read the about us it 
explains why we do the charity.
We are one of many parents who have lost our children there is nothing in this life what could be worse nothing.
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Happy 21st Nick!!  / Holly Dams (Sister)
~NICK~

Wow. I can't believe you're 21 today. What I wouldn't give to have you here...I remember talking about this with you. I was so excited!! (U were to!!) It just all feels so unreal. I pictured us all partying and drinkin like crazy, and yet here I am today, talking to a stone. Its so unfair. The more time goes on, the more I keep wondering why. Why did this have to happen to us...to you?? I never imagined losing you. I know nobody else did either. You really were a great brother. I miss you so much it hurts, and I'd give ANYTHING to have you back. Even for 1 day. Well Nick...I hope you're up there watching, having a great time on your birthday!! Happy 21st baby brother. I'll love you forever and miss you always!!!!  Close

Summertime memories  / Eddie Oertel (Close friend )
Man summer is coming up so fast and i cant stop thinking about the past couple summers when we would all sit around the fire, go swimming and get all messed up =).  I would give anything in this entire world just to sit and hang out with you one more time and i know everyone feels the same way.  We all miss you so much and no one will ever forget about you. You were such a good friend not only to me but everyone else too. You will never be forgoten nick!!!!!! 


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A Lifetime Wish  / To Our Nicholas

Dear Nicholas;

If I could have a lifetime wish,

A dream that would come true,

I’d pray to God with all my heart

for yesterday and you.

A thousand words can’t bring you back;

I know because I’ve tried.

And neither will a million tears,

I know because I’ve cried.

You left behind all broken hearts

and happy memories too.

I never wanted memories,

I only wanted you.

An angel in The Book of Life

wrote down our Nicholas’ birth

God whispered as He closed the book-

“He’s too beautiful for Earth”.

 

Love- Mom, Dad, Katie & Holl

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It's been 5 months~  / Holly Dams (Sister)
Hey Nick~
I can't beleive its been more than 5 months since I saw you. Me and Katie,and mom & Dad miss you so much. I'm trying to be strong for them and I do ok most of the time. I don't talk to anyone about it to much, or about how I feel cause there are no words to describe what I think and feel. Nobody understands. How could they? Sometimes I sit and think about everything from every detail of the accident to exactly how you looked in the hospital, to the funeral, and everyday after that. I analyze it and I just can't believe it's real. I think about the future... how the hell can we possibly live the rest of our lives without EVER seeing you again? It seems so impossible. I cannot believe you're gone. You had so much more to do and so much more life to live. We found that video of u at your football game. I was so happy to see you smiling and talking. I wish so bad that I could just talk to you. The pain I feel when I think about you is so deep. It's almost like a pain, like I can't breathe right. I want you back and there's nothing I can do. Just know that I love you Nick. I'm so glad I had you for my brother. You are an amazing person, and I will miss you every second of every day. Close

Nick the smiler!  / Paul E. Martin (friend)
Dear Nick, I met you when we were helping you move your mom. I remember that time when we talked and how good I felt just being around you. You truly have an aura about you that helped people feel comfortable around you all the time. I remember when your mom came back a couple weeks later and said you thought I was a good guy. That meant a lot to me. I hope we can all learn to be as  good as you are, making people comfortable and happy. Being a friend to everyone! I know everyone you touch will carry on your loving kindness. Close